The Rainy Day

The last 2-3 days have easily been the most depressing this year...

I am feeling so low and listless and lethargic...i feel totally unmotivated...i am completely bored and tired with everything. I know its jus a dull phase...
i'm so scared of sumthin...its like this horrible premonition...call it woman's intuition or wateva...it's like everything feels so painful and pathetic...i've lost all my zest for life...my enthusiasm has jus disappeared...i'm in that mood where i jus wanna fade into oblivion...
i feel i'm not contributing in a positive way to anyone or anything...i'm really not making a difference to my frenz or my family or society or my college or my country... i jus feel like i'm a waste of a life...
i know sumthin terrible is goin to happen...i'm jus not able to pull myself outa that vortex of emotions...it's jus dragging me deeper everytime i struggle to get out of this depression...
i feel emotionally drained...i feel like i have no reason to live, for the simple reason that i'm not any1z reason to live...
i jus feel bitter abt everything...i'm turning out to b sumthin i'm not...i'm takin the easy way out...i'm not putting up a fight...i have all these negative thoughts kinda influencing everything i do...i've become envious and petty...i've become selfish and manipulative...i hate the person i m right now...n now i feel like i'm jus drowning in my self-pity....

The day is cold, and dark, and dreary
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the mouldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.
My life is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
My thoughts still cling to the mouldering Past,
But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast,
And the days are dark and dreary.
Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.

- Henry Wordsworth Longfellow