Tuesday, November 29

disillusionment

I know the gayatri mantram. I like Bacardi.
I've learnt Carnatic classical music for 10 years. I use expletives in every second sentence.

I am part of a movement that is supposed to rejuvenate our dying India. I am not secular, in any sense of the term.

What does being secular really mean? Many people tell me that they're truly unbiased and have no kind of religious boundaries. Will they let their daughter/sister/brother/son/bestfriend marry some one from a different religion without any kind of reservations. I sincerely doubt it.

I love wearing sarees. I wear them once a year.
I love Telugu movies. I watch them once a month probably and make fun of them anyway.
It's either "cool" or it "sucks".
I love south Indian food. I don't know how to cook.

I make speeches and have arguments about all issues from poverty to illiteracy to girls wearing short skirts and smoking. I believe I'm a feminist.

What is feminism really? Calling all men chauvinistic? Doubting the validity of everything closely related to a man's success? Lauding Sania Mirza for standing up to them and continuing to wear short skirts on the field? Googling some thing some guy sent me about some young poet who was brutally murdered and mail him back, thanking him for the information?

I love festivals. I get up at 10 in the morning 'cos it's the only holiday I get.
I love the movie "Manushullo Devudu". I don't think I'll actually say this when I'm in Touch grooving mindlessly to some trance crap. Then it's got to be American Beauty or something.
I've read the Bhagvad Gita cover to cover. I have no sense of responsibility. I talk to my parents with utter disrespect sometimes.
I have total faith in the Indian Government and the system. I break rules myself.
When I went to get my passport renewed, I gave some guy outside the office money to get all the papers quickly. The cops came in just then. He sat on the stool in the dingy room and asked the guy to get him tea. I saw this and sat next to the cop on another stool when he said "madam, kade kyun hain?"

I don't go to the temple during "those 5 days". I don't go anyway, unless I have an exam.
I climbed up Tirmala without stopping, without eating a single thing. All I had on the way was water. Not devotion. Not sincerity. I want to boast about this as great achievement of sorts.

I am the new age Indian. The future. With the perfect balance of tradition and modernism.

Amazing.

Friday, November 11

20

Finally an excuse to write...something!

Rahul tagged Sunith who tagged me.
Rahul tagged Alak who also tagged me(Sun told me yesterday).

So I've to write 20 things about myself. I remember I already did.
sometime last August.

But anyway...

~ This is for Sunith:
I breathe. :P

~ I am not immune to criticism, though that's what I'd like you to believe.

~ There are exactly three people in this world who know exactly how screwed up I am and the rest still love me.

~ I definitely want to go on the HimSagar Express(from Kashmir to Kanyakumari) by myself.

~ I'm a die-hard romantic. I love things the traditional "malle poolu" way.

~ I think tennis and cricket are the only sports worth anything. And I said this much before Sania Mirza even played for India.

~ I am opinionated and I love people who atleast have an opinion, even if it's borrowed. And even if they give into me later, when we argue.

~ I love arguments. And I love that he allows me to win.

~ I make 5 year plans and 10 year plans. But I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow.

~ This is surely the scariest my life's ever going to get. Crossroads and all that. And it ain't too bad. I'm looking forward to the rest of my life. :)

~ My sunniest of moods can change to absolute rage within seconds. I'm glad I found someone who can handle all the hysteria.

~ I love appadams, sambar and perugannam. Gourmet meals can't get better than that.

~ I love things I don't understand. And if I don't after I've spent 10 minutes on it, it probably didn't really deserve my attention in the first place.

~ I say things. I do things. Even though I regret it the next second. I don't know why.

~ I love music. Singing to it. Swinging to it. Pure joy.

~ I hate people who
1. can't keep a secret
2. gossip
3. are hypocrites
4. seek attention
5. have no self-respect
6. have a superiority complex
7. have an inferiority complex
8. can't communicate
9. don't believe in love
10. give fake compliments
yes, it takes a lot for me to find someone tolerable but once I'm there..

~ I love people who have good handwriting and clean nails, among other things.

~ I believe in God and I just don't get how some people can be agnostic or atheists. You have to believe in some God.

~ My first impression about something/someone is usually the last. It's always love at first sight or..

~ I hate boundaries.

And I have no one else left to tag.