disillusionment

I know the gayatri mantram. I like Bacardi.
I've learnt Carnatic classical music for 10 years. I use expletives in every second sentence.

I am part of a movement that is supposed to rejuvenate our dying India. I am not secular, in any sense of the term.

What does being secular really mean? Many people tell me that they're truly unbiased and have no kind of religious boundaries. Will they let their daughter/sister/brother/son/bestfriend marry some one from a different religion without any kind of reservations. I sincerely doubt it.

I love wearing sarees. I wear them once a year.
I love Telugu movies. I watch them once a month probably and make fun of them anyway.
It's either "cool" or it "sucks".
I love south Indian food. I don't know how to cook.

I make speeches and have arguments about all issues from poverty to illiteracy to girls wearing short skirts and smoking. I believe I'm a feminist.

What is feminism really? Calling all men chauvinistic? Doubting the validity of everything closely related to a man's success? Lauding Sania Mirza for standing up to them and continuing to wear short skirts on the field? Googling some thing some guy sent me about some young poet who was brutally murdered and mail him back, thanking him for the information?

I love festivals. I get up at 10 in the morning 'cos it's the only holiday I get.
I love the movie "Manushullo Devudu". I don't think I'll actually say this when I'm in Touch grooving mindlessly to some trance crap. Then it's got to be American Beauty or something.
I've read the Bhagvad Gita cover to cover. I have no sense of responsibility. I talk to my parents with utter disrespect sometimes.
I have total faith in the Indian Government and the system. I break rules myself.
When I went to get my passport renewed, I gave some guy outside the office money to get all the papers quickly. The cops came in just then. He sat on the stool in the dingy room and asked the guy to get him tea. I saw this and sat next to the cop on another stool when he said "madam, kade kyun hain?"

I don't go to the temple during "those 5 days". I don't go anyway, unless I have an exam.
I climbed up Tirmala without stopping, without eating a single thing. All I had on the way was water. Not devotion. Not sincerity. I want to boast about this as great achievement of sorts.

I am the new age Indian. The future. With the perfect balance of tradition and modernism.

Amazing.