last week was one of the best pre-birthday weeks ever...
usually i become all depressed cos every birthday i make these over-ambitious plans to do 1 thing that'll change my life...n usually i end up doing lotsa inconsequential things that dont really matter ultimately...
neway i finally realized that i dont really hafta make a balance sheet of my life every yr...cos all these numbers and statistics dont really mean a thing...and even the ugly experiences r wat really make me...uniquely and very ME..
neway birthday shopping is fun...my parents suddenly became generous with their money and extravagant...so unlike them!! i'm not really much of a shopaholic...but i really blv a gal never has enuf clothes and shoes...
my grades have already become better...all my profs r really happy with me...my proj is also goin great...
i've started playin tennis again...first day on court was painful...all my forehands jus flew over the baseline and my backhands went straight to the net...i dint have the guts to play a match...i think i've forgotten how to serve...but then i wont give up like i did last time..cos my coach promised me i'd improve drastically in 3 wks if i continued playin..
jus waiting for the ind-pak match on sept 19th...its very conveniently on a sunday too...
the olympics and india...pathetic...
i think i shd write down my b'day resolutions...cos sumhow they work better than new yr resolutions...prbbly cos a b'day is very I-centric and for 1 day its only ME..
my first resolution: be less egomaniacal..remember that there is a world beyond u..
the rest i'll write down wen i update my blog...
1 day to go!! yayyy!!
Tuesday, August 31
Sunday, August 22
cricket fever part 2
how could v lose???
i stopped watching after dravid was run out cos by then i'd jus lost hope..
and i m a total optimist most of the time...but yday was jus hopeless..
n that actually made me wonder if v need sachin to win...
its not like he's performed in all the matches v've played and won but maybe jus his presence..his name..is sumthin that lifts the indian team...i'd hate to think that's true..cos i really want the team to win without sachin...that'll really mean a LOT to me...
winnin tomm against aus will b a big morale boost for our team...it'll also b like a revenge thing cos they beat us at hockey...that too the deciding goal in the last 30 seconds.. that too against a 10 player indian side cos dhanraj was called off...never knew hockey was even remotely interesting till i saw the match that day..
neway the only prob is, they have brett lee n i'm a BIG FAN of his...and in case ppl have any doubts...his looks r jus incidental...
but i'm still gonna cheer for india cos i worship rahul dravid and i'm sure he wont b out for a duck tomm...aussies beware!(ok that sounded lame but watever!!)
neway wat i planned to do this morning..
1.yoga - 45 min...............................20 min n then was too sleepy to go any further..
2.work out - 1 hr.............................slept and i'm feelin too fit today to guilt myself into working out..
3.complete records for lab ...................did abt 75%..guess i'll finish that..
4.complete linear integrated ckts
assignment.............did 18 out of 25 probs..the rest i really couldnt figure out...think i shd sleep over it...
5.mail everyone i care about(esp dad).........mailed only dad...tired of typing..
6.update my cv................................couldnt think of anyhting new to lie about :p
7.do sum gmat word lists......................gawd that sounds so boring..dont blame me if i dint...
8.buy a pair of sneakers......................too lazy today to get dressed and drive and go and choose sumthin i like and drive back....baaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
so wat DID i do??
saw the 2 hr thing of will n grace on zee english..
ordered pizza(again) cos its sunday....as if u need a reason for pizza!
was on the phone for god knows how long...n then onl chattin with arbit n sum not so arbit ppl...tried doin the project cos i hafta do most of the work onl...did a li'l then got bored...
now i'm writing this...i dont even no y...its cos i have nothin else to do...oh yea i actually do...but i'm soooooo in that i-jus-wanna-do-nothin-that-takes-even-a-li'l-physical-effort kinda mood..
neway thats abt it...
now i'm too lazy to type!!
i stopped watching after dravid was run out cos by then i'd jus lost hope..
and i m a total optimist most of the time...but yday was jus hopeless..
n that actually made me wonder if v need sachin to win...
its not like he's performed in all the matches v've played and won but maybe jus his presence..his name..is sumthin that lifts the indian team...i'd hate to think that's true..cos i really want the team to win without sachin...that'll really mean a LOT to me...
winnin tomm against aus will b a big morale boost for our team...it'll also b like a revenge thing cos they beat us at hockey...that too the deciding goal in the last 30 seconds.. that too against a 10 player indian side cos dhanraj was called off...never knew hockey was even remotely interesting till i saw the match that day..
neway the only prob is, they have brett lee n i'm a BIG FAN of his...and in case ppl have any doubts...his looks r jus incidental...
but i'm still gonna cheer for india cos i worship rahul dravid and i'm sure he wont b out for a duck tomm...aussies beware!(ok that sounded lame but watever!!)
neway wat i planned to do this morning..
1.yoga - 45 min...............................20 min n then was too sleepy to go any further..
2.work out - 1 hr.............................slept and i'm feelin too fit today to guilt myself into working out..
3.complete records for lab ...................did abt 75%..guess i'll finish that..
4.complete linear integrated ckts
assignment.............did 18 out of 25 probs..the rest i really couldnt figure out...think i shd sleep over it...
5.mail everyone i care about(esp dad).........mailed only dad...tired of typing..
6.update my cv................................couldnt think of anyhting new to lie about :p
7.do sum gmat word lists......................gawd that sounds so boring..dont blame me if i dint...
8.buy a pair of sneakers......................too lazy today to get dressed and drive and go and choose sumthin i like and drive back....baaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
so wat DID i do??
saw the 2 hr thing of will n grace on zee english..
ordered pizza(again) cos its sunday....as if u need a reason for pizza!
was on the phone for god knows how long...n then onl chattin with arbit n sum not so arbit ppl...tried doin the project cos i hafta do most of the work onl...did a li'l then got bored...
now i'm writing this...i dont even no y...its cos i have nothin else to do...oh yea i actually do...but i'm soooooo in that i-jus-wanna-do-nothin-that-takes-even-a-li'l-physical-effort kinda mood..
neway thats abt it...
now i'm too lazy to type!!
Saturday, August 21
cricket fever
god!!
i've been waiting forever to watch the ind-pak match..
n jus wen i started writing this...they actually started playing...n v won the toss...so half the work is done i guess...
neway sachin isnt playin...the entire series most prbbly...guess who's celebrating!!!;)
n as usual v lost at the olympics..
3-4 to aus in hockey...4th place in tennis...man i was totally counting on the hesh-paes magic to work...they couldnt even manage a bronze!!
i jus hope v win the match today...otherwise everythin's gonna totally blow!
neway all i've been doin is studyin...actually that is sooo not true...
i've been onl doin nothing much...chattin n lookin for sumthing to say at my seminar on monday which i'm totally unprepared for..
i was on the ph...i'm a totalll cellphone junkie!
all i've done the entire day: eating n sleeping n jus thinkin abt wat i'm gonna do with my life..
i wrote down this over-optimistic plan which i intend to follow with unbelievable determination..neway lets c how that works out..
wat's totally unfair is that i'm older than irfan pathan n he's the openin bowler for the ind team n i'm sitting in front of my comp cribbing abt it...lol...
neway it looks like another indian debacle...cos they actually hit a 6 off irfan, the first over of the match...guess who's celebrating!...lol..
neway i seriously hope v win today...cos everytime india wins a match, i end up doin well in my exams...not that i'm superstitious...but all that sure helps!!
i've been waiting forever to watch the ind-pak match..
n jus wen i started writing this...they actually started playing...n v won the toss...so half the work is done i guess...
neway sachin isnt playin...the entire series most prbbly...guess who's celebrating!!!;)
n as usual v lost at the olympics..
3-4 to aus in hockey...4th place in tennis...man i was totally counting on the hesh-paes magic to work...they couldnt even manage a bronze!!
i jus hope v win the match today...otherwise everythin's gonna totally blow!
neway all i've been doin is studyin...actually that is sooo not true...
i've been onl doin nothing much...chattin n lookin for sumthing to say at my seminar on monday which i'm totally unprepared for..
i was on the ph...i'm a totalll cellphone junkie!
all i've done the entire day: eating n sleeping n jus thinkin abt wat i'm gonna do with my life..
i wrote down this over-optimistic plan which i intend to follow with unbelievable determination..neway lets c how that works out..
wat's totally unfair is that i'm older than irfan pathan n he's the openin bowler for the ind team n i'm sitting in front of my comp cribbing abt it...lol...
neway it looks like another indian debacle...cos they actually hit a 6 off irfan, the first over of the match...guess who's celebrating!...lol..
neway i seriously hope v win today...cos everytime india wins a match, i end up doin well in my exams...not that i'm superstitious...but all that sure helps!!
Thursday, August 19
skooool
today was amaaaaazing...
actually it wasnt...it was jus like any other day till i went to skool to pick up my sis..
man its changed...everything looks so rigid n rulesy now..i mean wen v were in skool v cd get away with pretty much nething..
i jus waited in the parkin lot n there were all these kids(yea KIDS!! i'm gonna b 20!!!) playin around n shouting n jus freakin out..
i miss those days...v used to jus hang out...talk abt nothin exciting..jus the usual but it used to be so much fun...n the tennis courts bring back so many memories!!n the music room...how v used to practise for days before any ceremony...the choire and the band used to b wat every1 usually waited for...cos it was always the best...v were always the best...
last 2 yrs i was in skool..i bunked so many classes...jus used to go for the same movie a million times..lost count of the no. of times i saw dil chahta hai the 1 month it was playin at anand...now i regret it so much...not cos IF i had studied i'd have ended up elsewhere but cos i miss all the in-skool fun so much...
ofcourse now i no ppl i never knew even existed back then...n many have made such a huge diff to my life...n ofcourse i m more mature n responsible n all that crap..
but if only i cd turn back time...
i wd 've done so many things so differently...
but then again i wdn't be where i m now..i wdn't b wat i am now..
yea..i guess its all for the best..
isnt it always??
actually it wasnt...it was jus like any other day till i went to skool to pick up my sis..
man its changed...everything looks so rigid n rulesy now..i mean wen v were in skool v cd get away with pretty much nething..
i jus waited in the parkin lot n there were all these kids(yea KIDS!! i'm gonna b 20!!!) playin around n shouting n jus freakin out..
i miss those days...v used to jus hang out...talk abt nothin exciting..jus the usual but it used to be so much fun...n the tennis courts bring back so many memories!!n the music room...how v used to practise for days before any ceremony...the choire and the band used to b wat every1 usually waited for...cos it was always the best...v were always the best...
last 2 yrs i was in skool..i bunked so many classes...jus used to go for the same movie a million times..lost count of the no. of times i saw dil chahta hai the 1 month it was playin at anand...now i regret it so much...not cos IF i had studied i'd have ended up elsewhere but cos i miss all the in-skool fun so much...
ofcourse now i no ppl i never knew even existed back then...n many have made such a huge diff to my life...n ofcourse i m more mature n responsible n all that crap..
but if only i cd turn back time...
i wd 've done so many things so differently...
but then again i wdn't be where i m now..i wdn't b wat i am now..
yea..i guess its all for the best..
isnt it always??
Monday, August 16
independence day josh
oooooh
i completely forgot..
yday was great..
the whole independence day josh is realllllly amaaaaaazin
i mean the flags everywhere..it was really cool..
i attended 3 independence day flag hoisting ceremonies..1 at whisper valley, 1 at my grndparents apartments and another at a frenz place..
it was so much fun...
n then obly i got thinkin...(thats all i've been doin lately!!)
if i'm gonna contribute to our nation....n if i'm a responsible citizen...
so i read this bk...being indian..by pavan.k.verma again...
i read it wen my cuz gave it to me abt 5 months back....n i read it again yday...
incase u dint read it....u definitely shd....
try india on google n c wat u get....if u have the time...thats wat i did...thats how jobless i m...lol...:)
neway i'm too tired now to type out alllllll my views abt india n wat v shd do n how v shd do it n where the country's headed acc to me n all that...
its jus too vast...
n u already prbbly read the editorials n the spl editions of alllll the newspapers yday...
so...
the thing is u hafta have ur own opinion...pro-india obly...n stick with it...:)
i completely forgot..
yday was great..
the whole independence day josh is realllllly amaaaaaazin
i mean the flags everywhere..it was really cool..
i attended 3 independence day flag hoisting ceremonies..1 at whisper valley, 1 at my grndparents apartments and another at a frenz place..
it was so much fun...
n then obly i got thinkin...(thats all i've been doin lately!!)
if i'm gonna contribute to our nation....n if i'm a responsible citizen...
so i read this bk...being indian..by pavan.k.verma again...
i read it wen my cuz gave it to me abt 5 months back....n i read it again yday...
incase u dint read it....u definitely shd....
try india on google n c wat u get....if u have the time...thats wat i did...thats how jobless i m...lol...:)
neway i'm too tired now to type out alllllll my views abt india n wat v shd do n how v shd do it n where the country's headed acc to me n all that...
its jus too vast...
n u already prbbly read the editorials n the spl editions of alllll the newspapers yday...
so...
the thing is u hafta have ur own opinion...pro-india obly...n stick with it...:)
fanaaaaaa
today was amaaaaaazing....
not that i did anything out of the ordinary..
it was pretty mucht the same shit...
but i think it was all cos i woke up feelin absolutely fantastic abt myself...
maybe cos i had this awesome dream...
so thats all it takes...
a stupid dream to change my mood...
neway i think i'm gettin better at squash.... i lost again....but by a lesser margin...i'm startin to luv the game..
but still there's nothin like tennis...playin outdoors is the best!!
i have exams from thurs..n i jus dont feel like studyin...assignments n presentations r fine...but studyin for an exam jus sux...
i saw yuva today...i jus luv the music in that movie.....its awesome....fanaa n the title track gimme such a high...
n i've fallen in luv with vivek oberoi allllll over again...he acts so well....n he's soooo cute..
i no i dint do nething today to change the world...like i intend to...
but i'm feelin much better abt everythin....
life is lookin up baby...i'm luvin it!!!
not that i did anything out of the ordinary..
it was pretty mucht the same shit...
but i think it was all cos i woke up feelin absolutely fantastic abt myself...
maybe cos i had this awesome dream...
so thats all it takes...
a stupid dream to change my mood...
neway i think i'm gettin better at squash.... i lost again....but by a lesser margin...i'm startin to luv the game..
but still there's nothin like tennis...playin outdoors is the best!!
i have exams from thurs..n i jus dont feel like studyin...assignments n presentations r fine...but studyin for an exam jus sux...
i saw yuva today...i jus luv the music in that movie.....its awesome....fanaa n the title track gimme such a high...
n i've fallen in luv with vivek oberoi allllll over again...he acts so well....n he's soooo cute..
i no i dint do nething today to change the world...like i intend to...
but i'm feelin much better abt everythin....
life is lookin up baby...i'm luvin it!!!
Sunday, August 15
all crap...
suddenly i'm all grown up...
these days i'm actually thinking things thru...not bein impulsive....actually bein rational abt stuff...whether i'll regret doin wat i m...now i actually feel like i need a destination...a specific goal...sum kinda plan..but i was never a plan kinda person...i figured jus havin a vague idea of where i eventually wanted to b was fine.....i did things intuitively...wen i wanted to how i wanted to...i did make plans before tho'..u no the i'm-gonna-turn-over-a-new-leaf kinds...but resolutions never worked for me...cos i dint have the strength, discipline or determination to stick to them...but now thats the only hope i have..i want a succesful future...not 1 filled with insecurities... so now more than ever...i need a plan...i want 1...my very own yellow brick road...
i used to be so carefree...always so confident...overconfident actually...i had the kinda self-esteem that never let me down...but now i've started doubting my own capabilities.....i'm starting to doubt if i have any abilities at all...u no sumthin where i'm the best there is...i've already done the listing out all the positive attributes bit...i could only come up with things i'd done in my prehistoric life...a girl i dont even remember anymore...
i never questioned every emotion..never doubted every feeling...now all i do is dissect and overexamine every single thought i have....jus giving everything undue importance...
i always had answers for everything(maybe i never asked any tuf questions!!)
i wonder where i lost her...maybe i shdnt even b tryin to find that girl cos there r lotsa things i did regret..they're all trivial now..but back then they were major catastrophes...afterall they were MY problems...but maybe god(if there's 1)...maybe she has plans to make this end happy...maybe i hafta discover the path on my own...
i know life is supposed to be simple so its all gonna b alright...but the problem is there is no problem to jus set right....everything's fine....i am blessed with all the beauty in the world around me n all that crap....
doesnt seem beautiful at allll to me!
neway this can jus go on forever!!
maybe i shd jus go back to sleep...
these days i'm actually thinking things thru...not bein impulsive....actually bein rational abt stuff...whether i'll regret doin wat i m...now i actually feel like i need a destination...a specific goal...sum kinda plan..but i was never a plan kinda person...i figured jus havin a vague idea of where i eventually wanted to b was fine.....i did things intuitively...wen i wanted to how i wanted to...i did make plans before tho'..u no the i'm-gonna-turn-over-a-new-leaf kinds...but resolutions never worked for me...cos i dint have the strength, discipline or determination to stick to them...but now thats the only hope i have..i want a succesful future...not 1 filled with insecurities... so now more than ever...i need a plan...i want 1...my very own yellow brick road...
i used to be so carefree...always so confident...overconfident actually...i had the kinda self-esteem that never let me down...but now i've started doubting my own capabilities.....i'm starting to doubt if i have any abilities at all...u no sumthin where i'm the best there is...i've already done the listing out all the positive attributes bit...i could only come up with things i'd done in my prehistoric life...a girl i dont even remember anymore...
i never questioned every emotion..never doubted every feeling...now all i do is dissect and overexamine every single thought i have....jus giving everything undue importance...
i always had answers for everything(maybe i never asked any tuf questions!!)
i wonder where i lost her...maybe i shdnt even b tryin to find that girl cos there r lotsa things i did regret..they're all trivial now..but back then they were major catastrophes...afterall they were MY problems...but maybe god(if there's 1)...maybe she has plans to make this end happy...maybe i hafta discover the path on my own...
i know life is supposed to be simple so its all gonna b alright...but the problem is there is no problem to jus set right....everything's fine....i am blessed with all the beauty in the world around me n all that crap....
doesnt seem beautiful at allll to me!
neway this can jus go on forever!!
maybe i shd jus go back to sleep...
Thursday, August 12
ne idea???
do u know who wrote this song??
tell me if u do...
sum1 mailed me the lyrics n i rem listenin to the song ages ago...
i like it...
tell me if u no...
I am the darkness in the light
I am the leftness in the right
I am the rightness in the wrong
I am the shortness in the long
I am the goodness in the bad
I am the saneness in the mad
I am the sadness in the joy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the ghost in the machine
I am the genius in the gene
I am the beauty in the beast
I am the sunset in the east
I am the ruby in the dust
I am the trust in the mistrust
I am the the Trojan horse in the Troy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the tiger's empty cage
I am the mystery's final page
I am the stranger's lonely glance
I am the hero's only chance
I am the undiscovered land
I am the single grain of sand
I am the christmas morning toy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the world you'll never see
I am the slave you'll never free
I am the truth you'l never know
I am the place you'll never go
I am the song you'll never hear
I am the cause you'll never see
I am the will you'll never destroy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the truth in the lie
I am the why not in the why
I am the last roll of die
I am the old school in the tie
I am the spirit of the sky
I am the catcher in the rye
I am the twinkle in his eye
I am the jeff goldblum in"The fly"......
tell me if u do...
sum1 mailed me the lyrics n i rem listenin to the song ages ago...
i like it...
tell me if u no...
I am the darkness in the light
I am the leftness in the right
I am the rightness in the wrong
I am the shortness in the long
I am the goodness in the bad
I am the saneness in the mad
I am the sadness in the joy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the ghost in the machine
I am the genius in the gene
I am the beauty in the beast
I am the sunset in the east
I am the ruby in the dust
I am the trust in the mistrust
I am the the Trojan horse in the Troy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the tiger's empty cage
I am the mystery's final page
I am the stranger's lonely glance
I am the hero's only chance
I am the undiscovered land
I am the single grain of sand
I am the christmas morning toy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the world you'll never see
I am the slave you'll never free
I am the truth you'l never know
I am the place you'll never go
I am the song you'll never hear
I am the cause you'll never see
I am the will you'll never destroy
I am the gin in the gin soaked boy
...................................
I am the truth in the lie
I am the why not in the why
I am the last roll of die
I am the old school in the tie
I am the spirit of the sky
I am the catcher in the rye
I am the twinkle in his eye
I am the jeff goldblum in"The fly"......
Tuesday, August 10
chaos
man
everythin's so gloomy..
its rainin like crazy...i wanted to play tennis today...
agassi actually beat hewitt yday..that kinda inspired me...
i jus loooove those comeback stories..n i hate hewitt...
but dont u jus wonder y v applaud ppl who've overcome adversities..watever kind...monetary or physical or watever... v usually appreciate all the comeback kings/queens rather than ppl who've been excelling all thru...
v always pray for the underdog... i dunno y that happens...
maybe i like rahul dravid also cos of the same thing...
he's jus so underappreciated n i feel he jus doesnt get enuf credit for everythin he's done...
on the other hand...sachin...dont even get me started!!
neway i played squash today after ages....n i was tryin to play it like tennis...it was kinda hilarious...
i obly lost but it was fun...there's sumthin abt sport....i dunno if its adrenalin or endorphin...but it sure was fun today...
n then as usual i always come to this chaos in my head...
i dunno wat i wanna do with my life....n its high time to start lookin for sum ans...
i saw a clockwork orange...i read the bk ages ago...today i finally got to watch it..
i think this says it all...
"What does God want? Does God want goodness or the choice of goodness? Is a man who chooses the bad perhaps in some way better than a man who has the good imposed upon him?"
its a cool movie...cant decide if i like the movie or the bk better...
now i'm a diff person than the 1 i was wen i read the bk...maybe i shd read it again...
god.. no wonder i cant complete my assignments on time!!!
everythin's so gloomy..
its rainin like crazy...i wanted to play tennis today...
agassi actually beat hewitt yday..that kinda inspired me...
i jus loooove those comeback stories..n i hate hewitt...
but dont u jus wonder y v applaud ppl who've overcome adversities..watever kind...monetary or physical or watever... v usually appreciate all the comeback kings/queens rather than ppl who've been excelling all thru...
v always pray for the underdog... i dunno y that happens...
maybe i like rahul dravid also cos of the same thing...
he's jus so underappreciated n i feel he jus doesnt get enuf credit for everythin he's done...
on the other hand...sachin...dont even get me started!!
neway i played squash today after ages....n i was tryin to play it like tennis...it was kinda hilarious...
i obly lost but it was fun...there's sumthin abt sport....i dunno if its adrenalin or endorphin...but it sure was fun today...
n then as usual i always come to this chaos in my head...
i dunno wat i wanna do with my life....n its high time to start lookin for sum ans...
i saw a clockwork orange...i read the bk ages ago...today i finally got to watch it..
i think this says it all...
"What does God want? Does God want goodness or the choice of goodness? Is a man who chooses the bad perhaps in some way better than a man who has the good imposed upon him?"
its a cool movie...cant decide if i like the movie or the bk better...
now i'm a diff person than the 1 i was wen i read the bk...maybe i shd read it again...
god.. no wonder i cant complete my assignments on time!!!
Monday, August 9
today n more thots abt it..
neway
today was really tiring..
i dunno wat it is abt mondays...
i never used to have the so called "monday morning blues" but today i did...
i dint wanna get up so early...but i did
i dint wanna go work out...but i did
i sooo dint wanna go to coll but i had an assignment to submit so i actually went..
the best part was the prof who gave us the assignment gave us an extension on the deadline...and v dont get extra credit for submitting early...
i came hm for lunch n really dint wanna go back...but i did
cos my attendance is kinda low...hardly went to coll last month...
neway classes in the afty were so borin...she was talkin abt duo-binary PAM systems...dint understand a thing..i was half asleep cos i slept real late last night...
neway sumtimes i feel like such a failure in life..
i mean i think i have lotsa potential to do so much but i'm hardlu using it productively u no...so its totally futile..
these days wenever that feelin starts growin in my head...i usually end up diverting my attention to sumthin happier..
i dunno wat it is abt this urge to be happy all the time..
i mean happiness is ultimately jus a perception of the mind na... i mean life itself is jus that i think...
damn i used to hate philosophical bullshit...
but i'm the 1 doin the bullshittin now...
i jus feel like writin crap cos i'm bored n this whole bloggin enthu is gettin to me..
i no it'll fade soon(i hope it wont but i think it will!)
cos i think i have a really short attention span...
neway i really think i shd get back to doin my assignment...
more later...for sure...
today was really tiring..
i dunno wat it is abt mondays...
i never used to have the so called "monday morning blues" but today i did...
i dint wanna get up so early...but i did
i dint wanna go work out...but i did
i sooo dint wanna go to coll but i had an assignment to submit so i actually went..
the best part was the prof who gave us the assignment gave us an extension on the deadline...and v dont get extra credit for submitting early...
i came hm for lunch n really dint wanna go back...but i did
cos my attendance is kinda low...hardly went to coll last month...
neway classes in the afty were so borin...she was talkin abt duo-binary PAM systems...dint understand a thing..i was half asleep cos i slept real late last night...
neway sumtimes i feel like such a failure in life..
i mean i think i have lotsa potential to do so much but i'm hardlu using it productively u no...so its totally futile..
these days wenever that feelin starts growin in my head...i usually end up diverting my attention to sumthin happier..
i dunno wat it is abt this urge to be happy all the time..
i mean happiness is ultimately jus a perception of the mind na... i mean life itself is jus that i think...
damn i used to hate philosophical bullshit...
but i'm the 1 doin the bullshittin now...
i jus feel like writin crap cos i'm bored n this whole bloggin enthu is gettin to me..
i no it'll fade soon(i hope it wont but i think it will!)
cos i think i have a really short attention span...
neway i really think i shd get back to doin my assignment...
more later...for sure...
Sunday, August 8
b'cos...
yea
so i finally created a blog n all...
in-divi-duel....
in "divine conflict" acc to 1 of my frenz... n maybe i m..
but then maybe i shd discuss it later...
heheh confusion already!!
i was thinkin it cud've jus been in-divi-dual as in dual personality types(instead of the change in spelling)... i dint think of it then.. but i dont wanna sound like sum1 who has mpd or sumthin...man sumtimes i jus overthink stuff to make it all complicated...even tho' everything's pretty simple...
so i finally created a blog n all...
in-divi-duel....
in "divine conflict" acc to 1 of my frenz... n maybe i m..
but then maybe i shd discuss it later...
heheh confusion already!!
i was thinkin it cud've jus been in-divi-dual as in dual personality types(instead of the change in spelling)... i dint think of it then.. but i dont wanna sound like sum1 who has mpd or sumthin...man sumtimes i jus overthink stuff to make it all complicated...even tho' everything's pretty simple...
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